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[Aug. 20th, 2005|03:50 pm] |
sorry this is going to be a very braud update...
-me and tommy r soo done...dont ask...it just is
-school starts in 2 weeks....FUCK!
-CHRIS CAME BACK FORM THE BAHAMAS TODAY!!!
-i need a job..
-senior year better be great...
somebody comment...i dont even know if anyone reads this gay ass thingy anymore... =) |
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[Jun. 8th, 2005|08:41 am] |
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| | air conditioner | ] |
im so bored with myself! nothing exiting has happened to me in a while...maybe im loosin my touch. IDK uhmm ... nothing really has happened..had no school yesterday..i pretty much just layed in the hammock all day and did nothing. last night..did nothing..buzzed tommys head...that was exiting..let me tell u. tonight is unpredicted as of now.. tommy is going to hang out with his ex-girlfriend..."theyre just friends"... whatever.
last weekend was cool...i wenty camping with anthony and michelle and a bunch of their friends...i had a good time...caught alot of fish..and i got to spend the whole weekend with my brother...how cool is that?
right now im in mr. mirabellas office...school is REDICULOUSLY hot today...like 100 degrees in the building..i cant take it...everybody is soo fuckin cranky...including me...nobody even wants to talk to eachother and if they do..theyre yelling and freaking out at eachother...whatever..i just stay wuiet and keep going about whatever im doing...its easier that way...especially today..im on the war path.
good news! i lost 16 pounds...doing nothing!! yay for me. (new medicine i started taking...side effect: rapid weight loss)
ok well i just got sick of sitting at the computer...so im going...goodbye |
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| SPRING BREAK!!!!! |
[Apr. 23rd, 2005|02:28 pm] |
ahhh!! soo happy to finally be on spring break!!!! pretty shitty that i have to write a fuckin like 5-7page report on genocide in the holocaust. whatever though
nothing really has been hgappening...just chillen...gotta get a joib...my moms told me that if i stayed in school and pass all my subjects exept geometry shes gunna buy me a car and pay for like the first 3 or 4 months of car insurance...so thats my motivation until june...i wonder what i can get her to buy me next year lol nah im just playin...kinda
everybody around these parts is doin good...i gotta go babysit for tommys brothers boss on momnday night unti like really late but its fine cuz theyre really cool people and their kids are really cool too...and tommy gets to come so its alright...
ok well thats all for now...ill ge back to u when i have mnore time..for now..goodbywe |
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| a lovely rainy suday |
[Apr. 3rd, 2005|12:29 pm] |
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| | donnie darko | ] |
nt much has reallybeen happening...just been doin pretty much nothing.
-junior prom was o friday...it was alright the musiv sucked and so did the foo but i still had fun with my friends...idk though i def. thin it cud have been way better..but what are ya gunna do?
-school totall sucked all last week...had to write an essay for mr.cannice...about how i give hiom my word that m gunn do better and everything else.....totally lied tho...i men i cant change...if i chaned what i do in school and acually tried, it wudent be fun and i wud go half as uch as i do now...which wud be basically never...but i was havin a very in depth convo. with my mom the other day and she told me that if i make it thru this year in the summer shell let me take my GED test an if i pass it them i dont have to go bak to schoo lfor my senior year....awesome...i can finall get the fuck outof that place cuz it sux soo ad...cant take another yera of it...so thats pretty cool...i was surprised she sed shed let me do that cuz shes so hard up about school shit..
-yesterday hung out at tommys al day long..dnny is home from the hospital for the weekend so thats cool...chillen with him...last night went to play pool with my love and i won!!!!! i made the best "slice" shot or so they call it..and i had literally just learned how to do it liike 10 miutes b4 it hapened..i was proud
-today im at tommys again..watchin donnie darko..and hangin out wth eveyrone...dot know whats gnnna happen today because the day is still young....comment dears <3...later masterbater =) |
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| well here we are again.... |
[Mar. 26th, 2005|06:00 pm] |
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| | everyone in the livivng room yelling about nascar...lol | ] |
some bad nes im afraid....bobby franke passed away last sunday n a car accident but wont tell u bout that now...
on a beter note me and tommy are back together...wonderful..he defenitly makes me happy...
right now im just hangin out at tommys house and theres a shit load ofppl here...tommys brother danny is home from the hospital this weekend so were all visitng him...haha i love danny...even afte his accident he still has the same personality that we all always knew and loved...
well thats all for now..ill give more detais about everythikng when i have more time |
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| well hate to say but another one bites the dust |
[Jan. 18th, 2005|02:54 pm] |
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| | halo 2-so sick of it-all iuve heard for the past month | ] |
so yeah...this wekened was insane...
friday-chilled at briians house...he was sick...so i went home and got to bed early
-saturday had a cheerleading compettion all day...it was a good day...but we ended up loosing...i thought we were gunna do really good cuz like all our stunts went up and everything hit...but whtever...fuckin dousch bags...then that night me and brooke went to midland park..wow havent bene there in like forver. we just chilled and watched anchorman..but i felkl alseep cuz i was absolutly exhausted from the competition..then we went to brookes house and i slept over..
Sunday-woke up..went home..cleaned my house for my mom...then my brothers and sisters came over cuz it was my brothers birthday..and i got to se my new nephew for the first time..hes soo adorable.. then that night i went to briians and we chilled a lil bit..then we walked down to georges house cuz there was a party goin on...so we started drinking and smokin and shit...we were havin a good time..saw alot of people that i havent sene in a long ass time..so it was good to see them again...then craig and john kim started fighting and shit then a whole shit load of ppl jumped in outside and like practically all the guys were beating hte shit out of eachother...then it kinda briek up and mad ppl left cuz the cops were gunna come and we knew it..so madd ppl left but there were still some guys fighting..then we finally calmed it all down...pat was the hit somebody and busted his knuckles open so i cleaned his hands then me and bri coyle were talking outside cuz her and my girl erica were guna fight and i didnt want them to so i was chillen her out..then the cops came and me and her were the only ones out there...so the cop was like "who owns this house" and we sed our friend george and they told us to go inside and get him..but when we went around back to get them,.all the lights in the house were out and everyone was runnig around in the dark trying to decoy the cops but they were still all like screaming and shit so me and george and some other ppl were trying to get everyone toi be quiet and i was telling them that the cops were there..so the cops nded up comming in and was like as soon as they walked in the door they sed "well i hope everyone here is over 21" lol they found all the liquor and everything...so we were sititng on the couch and the cops were talking to us but then georges mom came home!!! she was like freaking out cuz she didnt know that there were ppl there..then we all kinda bounced as fast as we could...jystin couldnt go home so i let him come and stay at my house..
monday-no school...me and tubby woke up and we went to his house to get his car..then we chilled then we went back to my house..smoked and shit with my brother..then we went to agnes's house..then i went home to study...so i sit dwn to study and my fone rings and its briana..she tells me to call pat...so i call him and hes like "we cant be otgether anymore cuz i hooked up with someone else last night" and i was asked him who and he told me he didnt remeber..but i already knew that he hooked up with her cuz word travels fast..i just wasnt gunna say aything to him about it cuz i knew he wud say we cudent be together after that...so i played like i was all cool with it and that i wasnt mad and that i wud still chill with him and we wud be friends and shit..when really i wanted to be like "your breaking my heart and you dont even know it" but i didnt..so yeah pat hooked up with briana coyle..but im not mad at her cuz she didnt know that i liked him and shit or iknow she wudent have done that...it just sux...i liked ihm alot..like alot alot...but i guess it was one of those short lived too good to be with me and i knew it type of deals...so yeah..that sucks
today- went to school took some midterms and went home..right now im chillen at my house with briian tubby dani agnes and some kid form secaucus...but i gotta go to practice in like an hour...so i guess im out...
catch ya laterrrr...take a few minutes and comment me..noody does naymore...kinda bums me out.. |
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| we're havin us a time |
[Jan. 12th, 2005|09:03 am] |
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| | jerry springer | ] |
so yeah things have been alright i guess....up days and down days
-school fucken sucks and i tod my mom i was going to drop out when i turned 18 and she fliped out on me...but whatever im still thining about it..cuz my school is some bullshit and i hate it with a burning passion
-my friends are awesome...the best people i know..we have fun even when we do absolutely nothing...well at least i do..briian seems to as well..but everyone else complains that theyre bored but yet they seem to not want to think of anything to do.
-pat has been so shady lately...as well as briana...i think theyre fuckin around behind my back..but who am i to tell either one of them what to do..i just thought they both had a little more respect than that...but whatever..i can only do so much...theyre just like constanty on the fone, and whenever shes goin to hang out with him or whatever they both make sure that im not around..they wont chill till after ive gone home at night or whatever som stupid shit like that all the time..and they think im stupid enuff not to know but i know them both inside and out and i know when theyre lying...
-me and rory had like a huge fight cuz i sed some fucked up shit to him cuz i was angry and confused about pat and him and everything else and i took it out on the way wrong person...but i appologized to him so idk if hes gunna talk to me or if we wont speak for a while but i know sooner or later hell come around..he alwasy does =)
-im in cast class right now and my class is watching jerry springer on the big screen, cuz dixon hasnt coe up with lesson plans for this week..and its already wednesday...hes crazy lol
-me and kyler have been "bonding" alot lately lol...idk hes cool...we go have a cigarette everyday in his truck 5th period..cuz hes the coolest and he lets me do that lol...hes chill...he says im stupid cuz i didnt know what over drive was..i asked him "kyle..do u use over drive when u have to drive over like rocks and stuff?" and he just looked at me with the most blank face ive ever seen. it was funny
-briana and Al are fighting..idk what thats about and honestly i dont wanna be involved
-justin my love is sick with a lil case of the flu =( luv u baby get better =)
-alright well the bell is gunna ring soon...so i gotta go meet Al and briian...and see whats up for tonight...LATA! |
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[Dec. 9th, 2004|06:35 pm] |
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| |  curious | ] |
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| | reggie and the full effect | ] |
Big X-Yah
Lil' x-eh yes and no
Three XXX's-Hell Yah muthafuka!
Blank space [ ]-no.
Have you ever...
[XXX] been drunk
[XXX] smoked pot
[XXX] kissed someone.
[ ] rode in a taxi.
[X] been dumped.
[X] shoplifted.
[X] been fired.
[XXX] been in a fist fight.
[XXX] broken a bone
[ ] got hit by a car
[XXX] snuck out of your parent's house.
[x] been arrested.
[XXX] gone in a mosh pit.
[XXX] stole something from your job
[ ] celebrated new years in times square.
[ ] gone on a blind date .
[X] lied to a friend.
[X] had a crush on a teacher.
[ ] celebrated mardi-gras in new orleans.
[ ] been to europe
[XXX] skipped school.
[XXX] thrown up from drinking.
[XXX] lost a family member
[ ] played 'clue'
[X] had a sleepover party.
[X] went ice skating.
[X] cheated on a bf/gf.
[X] been cheated on.
[ ] had a sweet sixteen.
[ ] had ur tonsils out.
[ ] had a car .
[X] drove.
Do you...
[ ] have a bf.
[ ] have a gf.
[XXX] have a crush.
[X] feel loved.
[X] feel lonely .
[x] feel happy.<---This is a sometimes, so lil' x
[x] hate yourself<--This is a sometimes
[X] think you're attractive.
[ ] have a dog.
[X] have your own room.
[ ] listen to Hawaiian Music
[X] listen to rap.
[X] listen to rock.
[ ] listen to country.
[X] have more than 1 best friend.
[ ] get good grades
[ ] play an instrument
[ ] have slippers.
[X] wear boxers
[X] wear black eyeliner.
[X] like the color blue.
[ ] like the color pink.
[ ] cyber.
[ ] claim.
[ ] like to read.
[X] like to write.
[ ] have long hair.
[X] have short hair.
[X] have a cell phone.
[X] have a laptop.
[ ] have a pager
Are you...
[x] ugly.
[x] pretty.
[x] ok.
[ ] handsome.
[ ] bored.
[x] happy
[ ] bilingual.
[ ] Hawaiian.
[ ] Samoan.
[ ] Filipino.
[ ] Korean.
[ ] British.
[XXX] white.
[ ] black.
[ ] mexican.
[ ] asian.
[x] short.
[ ] tall.
[ ] grounded.
[ ] sick.
[ ] mad
[ ] lazy.
[x] single.
[x] taken.
[ ] looking.
[x] not looking.
[ ] brokenhearted
[X] talking to someone.
[X] IMing someone.
[XXX] scared to die.
[x] tired.
[X] sleepy.
[ ] annoyed.
[XXX] hungry.
[X] thirsty.
[ ] on the phone.
[X] in your room.
[X] drinking something.
[ ] eating something.
[ ] in your pjs.
[XXX] ticklish.
[XXX] listening to music.
[ ] watching the Olympics
[ ] watching tv
[ ] I prefer winter over summer.
[ ] I am a geek.
[ ] I am a shopaholic.
[ ] I am reasonably intelligent.
[ ] I am attracted to girls.
[XXX] I am attracted to boys
[x] I like British accents.
[XXX] I smoke regularly.
[X] I smoke socially.
[X] I drink socially.
[ ] I drink regularly.
[XXX] I get drunk easily.
[XXX] I do "drug(s)".
[ ] I will never date a bad kisser.
[ ] I've lied to avoid kissing them again.
[ ] I brush my hair at least 50 times a night.
[x] I am religious.
[X] I am not religious but have morals.
[XXX] I lie frequently.
[ ] I am impulsive.
[ ] I am hardworking.
[ ] I am good at History.
[ ] I speak more than two languages.
[x] I enjoy taking pictures.
[ ] I like spending money on myself.
[x] I like spending money on others.
[x] I have a regular income.
[ ] I earn money on a job-by-job basis.
[x] I pay my own bills.
[X] I rely on my parents for money.
[XXX] I can cook.
[X] I enjoy cleaning.
[ ] Tidyness is a must in my life.
[X] I like clutter.
[ ] My idea of good music is Britney Spears.
[X] I am fashion-conscious.
[ ] have good taste.
[X] people tell me I have good taste.
[ ] I am told I have yet to fulfill my potential.
[XXX] I am good at sports.
[XXX] I am good at certain sports.
[ ] I couldn't do sports to save my life.
[XXX] I am creative.
[XXX] I am extremely artistically inclined.
[ ] I want to be an artist when I grow up.
[ ] I want to be an engineer when I grow up.
[x] I eat when I'm upset.
[x] I cannot adapt to change.
[ ] I am interested in politics.
[X] I have shoplifted.
[ ] I download MP3s.
[XXX] I have done underage drinking.
[X] I have gone underage clubbing.
[XXX] I can dance reasonably well.
[XXX] I can dance extremely well.
[ ] I dance like a cardboard gorilla.
[X] I can sing.
[ ] I sing like someone stepped on my foot.
[X] I can swim.
[ ] I enjoy surveys.
[X] I enjoy surveys when I'm bored.
[x] I keep a journal.
[XXX] My teachers don't like me.
[ ] I enjoy controversy.
[X] I can be a bitch/bastard.
[XXX] I have a thing for bad boys/girls.
[ ] I have tattoos.
[ ] I've been in a nudist colony.
[ ] I'm not sure if I want to have children.
[ ] I'm not sure if I'll get married.
[ ] I know who I will marry.
[XX] Someone has a crush on me.
[XXX] I am interesting.
[XXXXXXX] I am a good liar.
[XXX] People enjoy talking to me.
[XX] I annoy people from time to time.
[XXX] I am a born leader.
[X] I am a born leader but shouldn't lead.
[XXX] I've snuck out of the house.
[what the fuck?] I enjoy felching.
[ ] I have a foot fetish.
[ ] I have a shoe fetish
[X] I watch Sex And The City.
[x] I don't think Sarah Jessica Parker is pretty.
[ ] I want to be J Lo.
[ ] I cut myself.
[x] I have cut myself.
[XXX] I hate people who pretend to be suicidal.
[ ] I hate popular people.
[XXX] I think cheerleading is a sport.
[ ] I am photogenic.
[ ] I live in Chucks.
[XXX] I think graffiti is art.
[X] I have dated a criminal.
[XX] I have been cheated on.
[X] I have cheated on someone.
[X] I have a temper.
[XX] I like playgrounds.
[XXX] I dance in the rain.
[ ] I am obsessed with Shakespeare.
[XXX] I have tanlines.
[ ] My favourite color is pink.
[X My favourite color is black.
[ ] would classify myself as emo.
[ ] I am musically inclined.
[X] I like listening to music.
[X] I like music-blasting cars.
[X] Thongs are comfortable.
[ ] I like flip-flops.
[ ] I know what monogamy is...
[ ] ... and I believe in it.
[ ] I want to be a social worker when I grow up.
[XXX] have sibling[s].
[XXXMy siblings annoy me
[X] I think South Park is funny.
[ ] I prefer Google
[X] I can sit Indian Style |
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| yup |
[Dec. 3rd, 2004|11:22 am] |
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| |  bouncy | ] |
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| | green day - american idiot | ] |
so me n pat bever went to the concert cuz his dad decided to be a dousche bag...but whatever im over it...and tonight were going to the k-rock clausefest..that shud be fun...i like pat so much man...hes so cool...we have a good time togteher...
anywayz..nuthin really has been up...the competition we were supposed to be going to on sunday got cancelled for us cuz we dont even know like our hole routine yet...im happy about that cuz i really didnt wanna go in the first place. right now ijm chillen in bio class...well actually this is my lunch period..but i didnt have any lunch money so i came intro my science class to hang with my buddy gary and play around on the computer. this past week has been reallly good..hgad a lot of fun...
sunday- chilled with pat at his house to watch the day after tomorrow...but when we got to his house his llil bro sed he had to help put up the x-mas lights...so we did that...sagui came for a lil wehile...then we went inside to watch the movie..it started out to be gay ..but then as soon as it started to get good...his fuckin dvd played fucked up and we cudent watch it anymore..so we werepissed about that..but we ended up going to wendys and had a good time chillen in the parking lot so it wasnt so bad..
monday- did nothing
tuesday- nothing
wednesday-left school early..chilled with patfrom like 11 to like 3...had a good time...he went to work n i went to practice...afterwards we hung out again...went to dunkin donuts for like a long time...then hot grill...mmmm
last night-chilled again with everyone...briana is so mad at me..so that was a lil wierd last night hangin out with her cuz she has like the worst attitude to me and it makes me mad but i wont say anything to her cuz i dont wanna fight anymore..i just want us to be the way we used to be..that prolly wont happen as long as im with pat...she prolly just jealous cuz i got what iu wanted and she didnt..thats okay tho..hopefully soon shell realize that friendship is more impt. anyway.
tonight-clausefest with pat..gunna be so much fun..some pretty good bands r playing but i think were going more for the fact that its somnehting to do and i9tms free...cuz my mom works there =)
now- going to study for a test i have in like 2 periods that i have no idea what its on...wish me luck..even tho i really dont care cuz school is a joke anyway...
oh..thanksgiving was a good time..me n my older cousins chris + tim were like the only older ones there...so me n chris decided to make the best of it..we looked at old ass pictures of us from when we used to hang out at my grandmas pool all day long...we laughed alot..it was nice..then we played guess who and chess and checkers...i loved it..i dont get to see chris alot cuz he works and hes getting too old for the family parties anyway..so it was aweomse hanging out with him...hes cool as hell. anywayz...my grandma and my aunts and uncles and little cousins were staring at a group of turkeys that were in the backyard..anfd they were just watching them do absolutly nothing..so me and jack and chris snuck out the basement back door and scared them all away..we chansed the and they flew fuckin high as hell..and then my family got mad at us...and jack fell in them mud..it was funny...
ok i really gotta go now...later masterbaters ...<3 |
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| holy shit..its been a looonng time |
[Nov. 11th, 2004|05:33 pm] |
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| |  crazy | ] |
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| | Jesus of Surburbia - green day | ] |
uhmm i dont have much time so heres whats been goin down in a nutshell... -today is Al's birthday!!!! happy 18th baby =) -the crew is all good...we have a good time..i love all of them -ME AND PAT SMITH ARE GOING TO A TAKING BACK SUNDAY CONCERT ON THE 26TH IN PENNSYLVANIA!!!!!!!!!! -i went to a GREEN DAY concert like a week or so ago..and it was A-M-A-Z-I-N-G...literally the most fun ive ever had in my life...we bought like cheap ass seasts up in the nosebleeds...but then my mom got us these wristbands cuz she works there and i was literally touching the stage!!! i got squirted in the face with Billie Joe Armstrongs water gun!! and this random kid kissed me...and it was the same kid that billie joe let come on stage and play the giutar and on the way home in the car i remembred that when the kid got on stage billie joe kissed him on the lips like as a joke..and then like 10 minutes later the kid kissed me so technically i kissed billie joe =)..i was actually in an all chick mosh-pit!! it was soo cool -have a new hairstyle cuz my hair is too long to put gel in..everyone says it looks "mad cute"..but idk..i guess i like it -cant wait till it snows...ive got an itch for snowboarding! -on halloween me and the crew almost got arrested at some abandoned assylum place!! it was sooo scary..i was buggin out...everyone ran...we were like 30-40 people big..and everyone but like me george, razi, justin, jamie, and lisa took off...i stayed cuz i had to pee sooo bad..and if i tried to run i wudda pissed my pants!! so they took our names and they said that if we ever got caught in their town again there wud be a warrant put out for all our arrests...whateverr -i miss britt...and the rest of the midland park gang...i gotta set some specific time aside to go there...i have to -okay well im out...its Al's birthday..so me and the girls are gunna go kidnap him and seduce him in the woods somewhere....just kidding =) peaCe!! |
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| this town is gay mann |
[Oct. 10th, 2004|02:49 pm] |
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| |  awake | ] |
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| | story of the year..page avenue | ] |
ok so i have been doing absolutly nothing lately...uhmm back on the comp. team..went to that the other day and realized how muchi missed it..it was hard cuz i hadnt lifted or tumbled in madd long...i did okay tho..the freshman on my team r funny..they were so like impressed by like the little things that i knew from doing it for so long cuz like alot of them have never cheered b4..and yeah so that was a good time..got jumped the other day...fucken sucked..my face got all jacked up..and now th cops in my school r all involved cuz the nurse saw my face which sux so teyre all on my ass to give them info....but it aint gunna happen
uhmm me and briana are planning a trip to PA...prolly not till it snows tho so this way we can do some boarding while were there...so thatll be a good time...prolly get real drunk with these two kids...one of whom i met in wildwood...hes cool...but this other kid ive only talked to on the two-way thing..he seems pretty cool tho..lol theyre gunna take us hunting
uhmm right now im hangin out at my house by myself...brian just left...
uhmm im talkin to one of the PA kids right now..don..hes funny..and uhmm waiting for dinner to be done
im trying really hard to grow my hair..its just frustrating cuz it grows soo fucken slow!!!
im gunna be taking the PSAT's on wednesday..sux
went to britts aunts house last night to babysit and sleep over...her uncle is mad cool...theyre like my own lol
shit i just realized i need gel..fucken a
ooo i never even wrote about wildwood...or did i? i dont remember but ill tell u about it anywayz cuz im a loser and have absolutly nothing better to do with my time..
WILDWOOD WAS GREAT!!!!
okay so me and britt drove down on wednesday...got there around like 8:00 at night...settled in..the next day we did a whole lotta nothing...went out to dinner..that was funn
then the next night allen and danny came down..theyre alotta fun...alen is one of the 2 kids that im gunna go up to PA to visit (he lives there)
oh and i swear to god im going to marrry a fireman..theyr eso fuckin hot!!!! holy shit okay so this kid allen is a fireman..which akes him even hotter...but i couldnt like hook up with him even though i really wanted to cuz i was involved with brian at the time...but me and brian are having some co,mplications right now so were taking a break form eahcother..aywayz..so yeah all day friday we were in the pool..mostly just me and allen and his dad wacking wachother in the head with this wierd beach ball thing..brittany sed that she was watching us from the window and he was totally flirting with me in the pool..but i didnt notice cuz i kept getting like knocked unconcious by this beach ball..at night me britt katie <33..allen and danny all had a wonderful time..hanging out on the boardwalk and shit..it was great!! i fucked up my ankle being stupid on the boardwalk..and when we got back to the hotel allen did the whole first aid thing..it was so cute..he like took my shoe off ad put ice on my ankle and elevated it and wiped my tears lol..thats when i knew he likedme instead of just wanting to hook up with me...but i stayed true to brian...dont worry...uhmm so yeah we had a good time...the actual parade thing sucked cuz it was like a hurricane...but i still had a good time...uhmm sunday was sad cuz everyone was leaving..katie left, allen and danny left..that was sad..and ryan left..so it was just me britt and willie...and we did pretty much nothin on monday exept go on the boardwalk..i was so happy to be home tho cuz to tell u the trut i missed brian..so i was real happy to see him...and uhmm that was my vacatrion to wildwood...in a nutshell that is
and now justin jut called me..that sexy beast haha...so after i eat im gunna go out somewhere or another...idk where...but im getting a phone calll..hold on-back..guess who it was?
ALLEN...
anywayz..ok im gunna go talk to this kid...so peace out homies..comment me mannn |
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[Oct. 2nd, 2004|06:21 pm] |
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long time no...uhmm...write?
uhm nothing relly has been happening lately...stopped soccer and went back to cheelreading..lol..didnt make it out there haha..sorry i dropped u girls...but im back...and to my soccer team...ilu ladies...KIT <3
i have some things to think over tho....where i am in my life right now...idk if i want to be there...hmmm im not sure what im goin to do about this..but it cant stay thisz way...
peaCe! |
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| did u ever just wanna let everything u feel out to whoever will listen? |
[Sep. 8th, 2004|06:37 pm] |
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well...
ive really been missing my dad lately...idk why...but i really miss him. I wish that i could make everyone who has a dad realize just how lucky they are...i wish i could have the chance to be "daddys girl"...i would give up my whole world to spend one day with my dad...just to remember what it felt like to have a guy in my life that wud love me no matter what i did wrong, or what i said. I came to the realization a few days ago that i dont remember the sound of my dads voice, or what he smelled like, or how his hair felt, or anything like that. You cant even imagine what it feels like, to know that u dont have anybody to walk u down the aisle on the most important day of your life...and know that when the DJ asks the bride and her father to step forward and dance together, and everyone will look around, but he wont be there. And i cant help but wonder, if he was here...would he be proud of me? or would he hate the person ive become? it scares me.
ive always been able to push the feelings aside, or just think about something else when i would be reminded of him...but not today, idk why...i wish i could forget everything. |
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[Sep. 6th, 2004|11:08 pm] |
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this weekend was fun...
-spent the whole weekend in midland park....i wish i had friends like them here...theyre the best people ive ever met in my life. and now i will tell u about them one by one...bwahaha
-Chris-soo fuckin funny....wow....cant get enough..BANANA SPLAT!!!
-Dave-what a cool kid...lol we arent allowed to drive together anymore...hahaha
-Brian-the most beautiful eyes in the world....soo much fun....ESPN...ism....prarie dog head....hey bri, guess what?...CHICKEN BUTT....chicken assassin!!!! we are the most imaginative ppl in the world...noone else wud have saw what we saw in the clouds..and the orgasmic ear...lol ur the best =)
-Lee-SCOTTY DOESNT KNOW!!!!!...shoe assassin!!!...BOO...AHHH!!!...scured mahself...
and last but always put first...Britt-ur my best friend in the whole world...noone will ever come close to what weve been thru together...amazing...im so happy u have friends like these guys...i know theyll take care of you...
okay i gotta go to sleep now...school in the AM...then soccer scrimmage after school...peaCe!! |
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| this summer felt like a long weekend |
[Sep. 1st, 2004|05:38 pm] |
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i cant believe that school starts TOMORROW!!! def. sucks.
ok so heres the scoop...
-had a scrimmage yesterday and we tied 2-2
-had a party the night b4 that and it was fun..got drunk with the soccer team lol
-last night~went to britts...got lost on the way there
-when i got there, as soon as I got out of the car Chris made me do the "throat fart" thing...
-BROOKE WAS THERE!!!!!!!!
-Brian (sooo hott!!!!) was sad cuz he was havin a bad day, i attempted to cheer him up but he wasnt havin it, so i left him alone =(
-I was sooooooo hungry so we went to wendys...it was good..
-came back from wendys, and chris decided he was hungry..so i decided to take a ride with them to mcdonalds so he cud get food..i had to ride with brian cuz they can only have 1 other person in the car...and he was still a lil sad so he didnt really say much to me.
-uhhmmm went back to britts, ate with chris..
-chilled in the coldesack...me and chris beat the shit out of eachother the whole time..hes fun =)
-then we decided to play "hide and go seek"...and it was boys vs. girls like usual...so the boys hid first, and when it was time to go find them, they decided they didnt wanna play...so i went to look for them by myself
-so behind britts house is a church, and everyone always hides on church property...so i go there to find them and its dark and i was by myself..they realized i was alone and took total advantage!!
-they were hiding in these bushes and it was REALLY dark over there so i slowly walked closer and then i get hit with a penny..so i knew they were in there but i was still freaked out...they were shakin the trees...and cuz i was scared the shounds seemd to be commin from all dif. directions..i was freakin out...i was like "okay guys i know ur in there so i found you, its time to come out..."
-they started scremaing my name and shit...so i ran away and got brooke..
-she went back with me and they weren in there...so we looked somewhere else...and we saw them running in the woods so we went over there and they all dissapeared..it was creepy...they were like breaking sticks and shit..haha..so then im like i see u come out blah blah blah...and then they all jumped out and scared the fuck out of me...holy shit..so then im tellin them what assholes they are for throwin pennies at me and shit and sahkin the trees..
-but they were like "we werent anywhere near there..we were over on this side the whole time" and of course me the retard that i am i believed them so they made me go over there with them and i jumped on chris's back cuz idk i was creeped out...but then brian made me get down and he pulled me by the arm over to where i was hearin the noises...i was scared lol
-and then they came clean and told me it was them...i had an idea it was =)
-after hide and seek we went and sat down in the coldesack and i threw froot loops into everyones mouth and it was a good time
-then everyone left exept dave me and brooke...then we went to take dave to ask his mom if he could spend the night "at brians"..she sed okay...so we brought him back to britts house to spend the ngiht with us lol
-then brian callled britts cell phone and he was upset so we walked to his house and i brought this duck that sings...(inside joke between me brian and chris) cuz i knew it wud make him smile...the whole way there me and broooke made up a dance that goes along with what the duck was singing..it was cool
-when we got to the end of his street, we came around the corner and started doin the dance down the middle of his street and we did the dance all the way to his front steps where he was sitting...and he laughed...mission accomplished =)
-so then brian convinces his mom to let him spend the night "at daves" so the 5 of us walked back to britts to spend the night..it was like 3:30 a.m. at this point..so we get to britts...and chill in her room...well it turned into truth or dare...haha it was a nice trip back to being in 6th grade hahaha...
-i did this bruce almighty scene impression and it had a certain sound effect in it, and everyone died laughin..it was great...and there was fuckin beetle roach thing...creeped us all out..i never saw boys jump that high and that fast over a bug in my life...haha sorry guys
-then we stayed up the WHOLE night...didnt go to sleep till like 8 this morning and woke up at 11...woke up showered...and got dressed...then chris and ryan came and we all chilled i britts room...so many ppl for such a tiny room lol as ryan stated many times
-brooke brought me home and we stopped at burger king...and got ALOT of french fries..then went to my house and chilled and watch some old home movies from freshman year lol...crazy times brooke and britt....crazy...next time i come to MP im bringin those tapes!!
then i went to soccer practice, and my ankle is soooo swolen and black..but i dont wanna say anything to anybody cuz then theyll sit me out..so ive just been playin on it =(
school tomorrow so im gunna go eat and then advil, ice...and sleep....comment me my lovlies |
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| mer hehhhh |
[Aug. 23rd, 2004|09:08 pm] |
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well this past weekend i went to britts house...and stayed for 2 nights....amanda jones was there, and we had sooo much funnn. I finally got to meet all her friends in midland park..and they are soooooo fuckin cool...holy shit...lee is soo funny and this kid chris is a fuckin PIMP...oh man and this kid brian was there and holy shit hes fuckin gorgeous...and uhmm we did basically nothing all weekened, but surprisingly it was a good time...we sat in britts coldesack, and just chilled, played some hide and go seek and the boys thought that i wudent be able to hide and that they wud find me and we wud never find them, but it was just the opposite, we found the boys, all exept adam and then they were lookin for us and they found britt and amanda but they never found me. I only came out of my spot cuz i had to pee and my ass hurt cuz i was sittin on a stick. Late at night we went to brians house =) and we made a chicken hahaha a whole chicken. It was pretty good actually. and uhmm me and hbrian thought it was gunna explode, but it didnt..it was fun to htink about tho. And uhmm every night about 3:00 we went home and ate and then went to sleep...and started it all over again. Friendlys was a good time too...uhmm and we went to A&P and hung out with chris while he had to do carts...what a wierdo..juts kidden i love you chris =) and uhmm i was sad to go home tho....but the cool thing is, brian text messages me all the time...and i hope to go there again this weekend so i and see britt and everyone. right now im at Geo's house and everyone is here...a few ppl are MIA though....i have to be home in like a half hour cuz i have practice in the AM...oh man i had a good time at practice today....JUST KIDDING....nah it was alright...i scored alot which 2was cool..i thought that i wud be like really bad and everyone wud be better than me, but its not really hard...kinda fun...tiring tho...and uhmm okay im gunna go now...comment me =) |
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| "you have it or you dont" |
[Aug. 18th, 2004|10:43 am] |
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uhmm well things have been alright...
right now im at my house chillen with ponch cuz hes leaving for college in like 5 hours and uhm yeah..last night i went bowling with justin and robbie and zach and it was a good time...then we went to georges house cuz steve told us to but when we got there they had just left...so we met up with chuck and kyle and went go quick chek...on the way there the saw al and he folowed us....we hung at quick chek..then steve, rob, and dan came...we chilled for about a half hour then justin brought me home...i took his lighter by mistake...and his hat on purpose....lol sorry justin...
today its hot, and im bored...briana is in south carolina...i miss her
later im gunna hang out with LAUREN BUGLIONE!!!!!!! who i fucking miss so much...havent seen that slut in a million days...woot woot....
anyways...cant wait for wildwood
me and my sister r sorta fighting for the new room were building in the basement...but i bet she wins cuz shes spoiled
uhmmm tonight i hope to hang out with the guys again...theyre fun
nothing else is happening...im hungry...gunna go eat...laterr
comment me kidds...i enjoy reading it |
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| ahhh |
[Aug. 12th, 2004|05:58 pm] |
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sooo fuckin angry!!! this house sucks...i hate my mom...what a cunt...i do everything she asks and the first time i object to something i get in tons of trouble...fuck that...im 17 yrs. old..fuck her....whatever dude...im out... |
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| summer schools over!!!! |
[Jul. 30th, 2004|05:05 pm] |
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ok so summer school ended today which is friggen awesome...and uhmm im happy....
i got my schedule...
1) History I - Mrs.Tucker
2) Cast - Dixon!!!!
3) Art - Mrs.Ashton
4) English II - Mr.Schmitt
5) Lunch - K6
6) Gym
7) Bio for Living - Mr. Gallagher
8) Mod Geometry - Mr.Kurtyka
if we have anything together...comment =)
uhmm tonight im going to this scary abandoned place with robbie and the other guys...im nervous....rreeeeallly nervous...i know theyre gunna scare me reeeally bad on purpose cuz they know what a pansy i am when it comes to scary dark abandoned haunted places where people have been mutilated to death and their remains might still be there..along with their spirits!!!!!! ok im done
but anyway....i reeeeallly miss britt...sometimes i feel like shes forgotten about me....but i dont want her to change anything b/c shes got some reeallly great people up there who care about her and i dont think shes ever been happier...i find myself jealous of like amanda (who i absolutly love and miss just as much) but like amanda is one of my best friends and i dont wanna be jealous of her...just britt calls her and hangs out with her all the time..and if she wants to see amanda all the time thats cool but id like to see them both...idk maybe im just retarted...
Briana is finally home and all safe and sound =) my little comquat..lol...
and uhmm im gunna go now....
MY BIRTHDAY IS A WEEK FROM TOMORROW!!!!!!!! the big "one seven"
comment me fuckers =] id like to know SOMEONE still reads this thing |
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| cuz im free...nothins worryin meeeeee |
[Jul. 23rd, 2004|03:32 pm] |
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| | judge judy!! lol --> britts aunt is watchin it | ] |
dude so i broke up with tom and now im fuckin so happy..lol idk why but iuve been like such a better person lately. yeah so i made the right choice there. finally.
but anwyayz...school has been alright...well as okay as summer school can be..right now im at brotts aunts house just chillen..uhmm cant wait to go to florida with bri and then to wildwood with britt....for some reson i think this yr. in wildwood is gunna be better than the last 5 or 6...idk why..maybe iuts cuz well be able to drive ourselves around instead of having the adults do it or walk...so well be able to do alot more stuff....and uhmmmmm my birthday is comming up in like 15 days..so thats awesome..gunna prolly get a nextel cuz thats like the only thing i want...uhmmm and i think thats it....im just kinda livin..nothin special is happening....oh my brothert turned 23 the other day and we had a surprise party for him at our local bar..and he was soo surprised..it was great..he shed a few tears so that was cool. and uhmm he got alot of cool stuff..like his girlfriend got him a tv with a dvd player in it..and like idk he got alot of stuff so im ahppy for him...it was his best birthday ever...usually something bad happens on his birthday or he gets mad and just has a horrible day...lol hge told me that this was the first birthday in 10 years that he wasnt gunna get high lol i thought that was funny...good thing he doesnt smoke anymore..hes too old for it now...but anywayz...im gunna go and eat something..so comment me and make me happy =] |
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